Every time a moment like this happens, I think to myself, “I need to write this down.” But then, shortly thereafter, the moment passes and the gumption to record its effect quickly fades.
So, here’s the deal in a nutshell. I’ve been feeling low. Like wayyyy low. And I want to say that I prayed about it and God quickly rescued me out of that low and helped me feel better, but something even sweeter happened. I prayed that God would show me what he wanted me to do and lift me up.
Today I got a call from a woman who is my mentor mom in MOPS. I had hesitated to call her and talk to her about how I was feeling because for me, it’s easier to hole up and deal with things alone. the problem with that method is that I end up feeling more alone and sometimes more conspired against in the process. She, in her own sweet way, told me specifically how my life impacted the group. She told me about my bright light and my gifts that are integral and so necessary for the group to thrive and function.
Not even an hour later, I just happened to get a notification on my phone that someone had written me a private message through our church’s social network, “The City”. The message was from a person in our RLG at church who I barely know. She told me she really enjoyed hearing my point of view and how “passionate and articulate” I am. She said she wants to get to know me better and talk, because she enjoyed hearing me talk so much.
Hearing both of these things within an hour was one thing, but hearing them after I’ve undergone so much pain and sadness throughout the past few months was like an incredible healing salve that immediate soothed and healed the pain. It’s as if I never had any pain to begin with. I’m amazed by these very specific affirmations about who I am coming from two people within a short time span. It’s not just a self-esteem booster either. That would not have the healing powers that these words had. These words were specific. They affirmed what I could only hope I am putting out there and made me realize how unique and individual we all are and how unique and individual our gifts and abilities are. If I had not heard those words today, I would probably still be lingering a bit in my pit of despair and thinking about how I don’t belong. Instead, however, I have a new spring in my step today. I’m confident. I’m breathing. I’m living. I’m loving.
These women may never know the impact they had on my spirit today. I needed their words more than they could ever imagine. That said, it makes me even more conscientious about all the people who need my specific words of affirmations in their lives.
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